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3D Render by Beautiful MisfitsThanks to Hannes W and his Nena-Character he made.
Again a render with nothing to hide, but this time adults only 18+ for another reason.
It happened last Tuesday (15.10.) and my world isn't anymore, what it was before.
Feeling left alone after a heavy heart attack and without my sons I wouldn't be here anymore.
3 stents and tons of medications. At least a doc gave my youngest son a sick-leave for a week, so I'm not alone in the house.
From next week on I have to deal alone with my thoughts and worries.
Don't ask for a Rehab, I'm in a country, you don't wanna be sick in.
Once a week a kind of rehab meeting, 1 hour driving from my place, no bus connection or anything.
Again a render with nothing to hide, but this time adults only 18+ for another reason.
It happened last Tuesday (15.10.) and my world isn't anymore, what it was before.
Feeling left alone after a heavy heart attack and without my sons I wouldn't be here anymore.
3 stents and tons of medications. At least a doc gave my youngest son a sick-leave for a week, so I'm not alone in the house.
From next week on I have to deal alone with my thoughts and worries.
Don't ask for a Rehab, I'm in a country, you don't wanna be sick in.
Once a week a kind of rehab meeting, 1 hour driving from my place, no bus connection or anything.
Oh dear, I'm really very sorry for you. Even I, as a frequent writer Pushee-Ri / PasahRi, am speechless and shocked.
I'm keeping both fingers (and toes) crossed for you and wish you all the best!
I'm keeping both fingers (and toes) crossed for you and wish you all the best!
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Beautiful Misfits
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Tue, Oct 22, 2024Ich danke Dir 
In Deutschland waere ich vom KH direkt in die naechste Rehab gepackt worden und gar nicht nach Hause gekommen.
Hier funktioniert sowas nicht.
Vor 2 Tagen Panik-Attacke oder was auch immer die Beschwerden ausloeste und ab ins KH.
Dazu musst Du wissen, wir wohnen in der Larvik-Kommune und darum kommt auch nur das KH in Larvik fuer uns in Frage. Also brachte mein Sohn mich dort hin (eine Stunde Autofahrt). 1,5 Stunden lag ich dort, dann hiess es, Du musst zur Blutentnahme ins KH. Nur eben in ein anderes, da sie in Larvik keine Moeglichkeit haben, Infarkt-Marker abzunehmen. Nochmal 1 Stunde Autofahrt und nach weitern 3 Stunden dort hiess es, ich muss ueber Nacht bleiben.
Das ach so tolle Norwegen, dass alle so lieben und wo jeder so gerne hin will.
Lass es bleiben, wenn Dir dein Leben lieb ist.
In Deutschland waere ich vom KH direkt in die naechste Rehab gepackt worden und gar nicht nach Hause gekommen.
Hier funktioniert sowas nicht.
Vor 2 Tagen Panik-Attacke oder was auch immer die Beschwerden ausloeste und ab ins KH.
Dazu musst Du wissen, wir wohnen in der Larvik-Kommune und darum kommt auch nur das KH in Larvik fuer uns in Frage. Also brachte mein Sohn mich dort hin (eine Stunde Autofahrt). 1,5 Stunden lag ich dort, dann hiess es, Du musst zur Blutentnahme ins KH. Nur eben in ein anderes, da sie in Larvik keine Moeglichkeit haben, Infarkt-Marker abzunehmen. Nochmal 1 Stunde Autofahrt und nach weitern 3 Stunden dort hiess es, ich muss ueber Nacht bleiben.
Das ach so tolle Norwegen, dass alle so lieben und wo jeder so gerne hin will.
Lass es bleiben, wenn Dir dein Leben lieb ist.
So - now I am Pushee-Ri. Wanted to wish you the same as above ... and briefly point out: your picture is in the normal gallery. The admins / the machine always know better than we do (see the thread by Hannes at the end). But don't get angry now (it's not worth it), but rather grin (you'll get more out of it).
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Beautiful Misfits
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Tue, Oct 22, 2024Danke, noch einmall und fuer den Lacher, den brauchte ich.
Zur Zeit gibt es nur eines, was mich wuetend machen koennte und das waere die Begegnung mit meinem Hausarzt, der mich vor kurzen nicht fuer voll nahm, ein 1-Minuten EKG machen liess und mich als gesund nach Hause schickte.
Klar, bin nun mal absolut nicht der Infarkt-Risiko-Typ, doch wenn man in 11 Jahren 4 Mal beim Arzt war, dann sollte der verdorri noch mal wissen, dass etwas ernstes im Busch ist, wenn ich schon mal dort erscheine.
Zur Zeit gibt es nur eines, was mich wuetend machen koennte und das waere die Begegnung mit meinem Hausarzt, der mich vor kurzen nicht fuer voll nahm, ein 1-Minuten EKG machen liess und mich als gesund nach Hause schickte.
Klar, bin nun mal absolut nicht der Infarkt-Risiko-Typ, doch wenn man in 11 Jahren 4 Mal beim Arzt war, dann sollte der verdorri noch mal wissen, dass etwas ernstes im Busch ist, wenn ich schon mal dort erscheine.
In the USA where I live, the word "rehab" usually refers to a process by which one reduces their addiction to recreational drugs.
But I suspect you do not mean "rehab" in this sense. But I suspect you use "rehab" to mean some kind of continuing therapy for your heart, which apparently involves cumbersome doctor visits and probably includes taking some drugs.
Regardless, I see ya be going through rough times here. I'm sorry this is happening to you.
Well, at least you got to use the process of making art to cope with it.
Yes, and thanks for sharing the art, the meaningful art that communicates your real human condition.
But I suspect you do not mean "rehab" in this sense. But I suspect you use "rehab" to mean some kind of continuing therapy for your heart, which apparently involves cumbersome doctor visits and probably includes taking some drugs.
Regardless, I see ya be going through rough times here. I'm sorry this is happening to you.
Well, at least you got to use the process of making art to cope with it.
Yes, and thanks for sharing the art, the meaningful art that communicates your real human condition.
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Beautiful Misfits
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Fri, Oct 25, 2024Thank you
You're right with the second explanation. It's to learn how to deal with the ptsd, how to change habits if in need, about healthy food and all stuff like that.
Of course, a part of it is as well to quit addictions, if one isn't able to stop smoking or only eating fast food.
I know, I have a long way to go and it will take a while, that I don't run into the next panic attack, only because it's beautiful weather outside.
You're right with the second explanation. It's to learn how to deal with the ptsd, how to change habits if in need, about healthy food and all stuff like that.
Of course, a part of it is as well to quit addictions, if one isn't able to stop smoking or only eating fast food.
I know, I have a long way to go and it will take a while, that I don't run into the next panic attack, only because it's beautiful weather outside.
Everwild
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Mon, Oct 28, 2024The hardest part in dealing with PTSD (for me) has been learning to recognize all the many forms it can take. Some of it, like the panic attacks or the nightmares, etc. are easy enough to recognize, but it's them sneaky episodes they don't tell you about and that you have to learn to recognize on your own. So I totally feel for you right now. And a heart attack is definitely no joke. Do you have neighbors you can rely on to at least check on you periodically throughout the day if you have to be alone?
Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate. Remember that it doesn't really matter how much or how little; you can only eat an elephant one bite at a time. Slow and steady wins the race and baby steps are just fine. You're already overwhelmed, so don't try to address it all at once.
Also, if you just need someone to hang out with so you don't feel isolated or alone, you can certainly reach out to me directly here. I use Discord, too. For now, focus on getting well and stronger. <3
Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate. Remember that it doesn't really matter how much or how little; you can only eat an elephant one bite at a time. Slow and steady wins the race and baby steps are just fine. You're already overwhelmed, so don't try to address it all at once.
Also, if you just need someone to hang out with so you don't feel isolated or alone, you can certainly reach out to me directly here. I use Discord, too. For now, focus on getting well and stronger. <3
Beautiful Misfits
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Tue, Oct 29, 2024Thank you Everwild, for your words and understanding.
Yes, and there are many of the sneaky ones, those that comes in a sudden, moments you don't think about and you find yourself crying like a baby, feeling so damned helpless.
No neighbors, distances in Norway aren't only to measure in meters, but as well in "stay away, I live in my bubble, do you stay in yours". And my "direct" (too long distance to really say neighbor) neighbor, the only one I have a round here, is this kind of human.
But I have my sons and if it really should happen, that I have to stay alone while not being ready for it, my best friend offered me to stay with her
I had a lot on my plate, put it all beside, just concentrating on the next step to deal with PTSD and doctors here, that don't give a sh*t because they are going by hours and numbers, not by humans.
Happened yesterday again, the doc really told me: Your time is up, for everything else you need to get a new appointment.
Norway and health care is like a 3 world country
Yes, and there are many of the sneaky ones, those that comes in a sudden, moments you don't think about and you find yourself crying like a baby, feeling so damned helpless.
No neighbors, distances in Norway aren't only to measure in meters, but as well in "stay away, I live in my bubble, do you stay in yours". And my "direct" (too long distance to really say neighbor) neighbor, the only one I have a round here, is this kind of human.
But I have my sons and if it really should happen, that I have to stay alone while not being ready for it, my best friend offered me to stay with her
I had a lot on my plate, put it all beside, just concentrating on the next step to deal with PTSD and doctors here, that don't give a sh*t because they are going by hours and numbers, not by humans.
Happened yesterday again, the doc really told me: Your time is up, for everything else you need to get a new appointment.
Norway and health care is like a 3 world country
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